This blurb marks the beginning of a brand new life and I don’t know what that will mean exactly. But one of those things will be to get my patooty actually writing again. I am a lazy toad at times, I certainly do admit that … but it is time and thus the Joy of Just This will be taking shape officially. Much like Frankenstein’s monster, we are not really sure what we are going to get. But something will arise and take shape or be just poofs of smoke billowing up one after another and dissolving into the ethers, who knows, but here we go!!
First and foremost, I have exited stage left from my life. Not meaning like dead and talking to you from the great beyond, but Earth 2.0 life has been calling. I have had severe ants in my pants for some time. After feeling like I was ready to chew my own leg off for a while now, I decided to just hit the road and leave it all behind. I was trying to line up some extra gold coins for this endeavor in the way of selling my business in real estate, which did not exactly go as planned, but that matters little when the great vast void of not knowing is calling your name. And anyway, it was pretty much just my beard for pretending to be a normal person anyway. And fwew, I whipped that baby off and I can finally run naked in the streets now, metaphorically speaking of course! I kind of feel like one of those base jumpers who wear those outfits so they get to look like flying squirrels. Who doesn’t want to dress up like a flying squirrel? Maybe that will become my new beard, flying squirrel girl.
Actually, at this moment, it feels more like Mary Poppins gently floating down with her umbrella, but I think those base jumpers make a cooler analogy, so let’s go with that. Yet again, it kinda feels like being shot from a cannon and THEN gently floating to the ground like Mary Poppins and her umbrella … so we have a little bit of both. And while being shot from the cannon I am definitely wearing a base jumping squirrel suit, and it may have some kind of aerodynamically suited bedazzling too. This is a big leap and bedazzling is kind of required I think.
So the big base jump/umbrella float of 2024 has happened. I am kind of blown away by the steadfast nature of my internal compass right now. I have very little idea where I will end up, what I will be doing specifically or how the little green pieces of paper will come; and somehow that feels so dang wonderful. It kind of feels like the universe has picked me up and shaken out all of my pockets and then plopped me back down. Inside those pockets were a lot of ideas I had, feelings of insecurity, a sense of lack around everything, a need to know stuff, or at least pretend or convince myself that I knew stuff and a whole other caboodle of things that keep us running in circles and trying to figure out ways to feel ok and not a total mess. I think it is working too, I feel pretty dang good I just have to say.
It doesn’t hurt at all that my pretty much only mission was to go and get my butt among some trees. That has happened big time. I am taking little baby steps by stopping by at a couple of friends and family members. It is under the guise of hanging with them, but secretly it is because they live in groovy tree filled places, so it is a little of both. The trees and I are high fiving and hugging and winking at each other all over the place. So it is kind of between us what my real visiting agenda is.
So from here I hope to be blurbing more now and I plan to finally go through a bunch of my half scrawled ramblings and musings about various topics from toe jamb to esoteric spirituality and such, which previously my lazy toad tendencies had made it difficult for me to get them on the site. That is all changing now baby, I can feel it!!!
Much love and skipping in nature and hoping that you experience a moment or two of reverence for the joy of just this, whatever This may be.
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